You, cheeky devil!

Tadi pagi2 morning kita jumpa bos kita yang dah 4 minggu tak datang sebab  cuti sakit...yeay abah dah balik yeay!!Jadi dimulakan dengan bismilllah... kita pun tanya kabar dia ... bagitau betapa kita, kitorang semua teringat ngan rindu kat dia..ahaks..al-poyos al-drama spektra..(betul ni..dia la merangkap abah kita kat ni..iskh..iskh...bagai hilang arah kita 4 minggu tak nampak dia, tak bole jumpa dia bila ada problemo..huhu..)then lepas tu ..pagi tadi jugak kita mintak dia sign 3 barang guna duit dari akaun dia sebab akaun geran dah tutup..nak harap duit dari akaun kita tinggal paras idung..sepanjang dia takde..beli barang semua cilok akaun geran lain..diorang kata takpe pandai2 la diorang kautim la sesama diorang..(alhamdulillah...diorang kata jangan buat diri menderita sebab tergendala koje sebab tak dapat beli barang makmal..insofff..benda ni kita kena buat kat tanahair tercinta..keutamaan penyelidikan, jangan jadi 'jual ikan'...sebab yang lain tu boleh dikautim kemudian kan..)..jadi bila duit akaun kita yang sekolah sediakan dah paras idung..n semua barang yang besar2 guna duit dari akaun dia ..jadi sementara dia ada ni hari ni...kita check2 apa barang2 nak beli...pastu ptg tadi  kita pegi la jumpa dia lagi...sebab kita kompim kena beli barang lagi ni..

Kita : Bos, boleh jumpa?

Bos : ha..Masuk2!!...

Kita : Saya ada situasi ni...

Bos : Sila2 cerita...

** Kita pun cerita la situasi eksperimen, buat table barang dah pakai..bla2..bla..tunjuk la sket cik temah oi ala2 kesaintifikan dan kekiraan dan kesangat perluan tu kan...cerita gas skrg dah tinggal banyak mana.mana tau error ke..kang jadi macam bekalan lepas tgh2 buat abis sebab tak perasan level gas yang tinggal..nak tunggu orang anta makan masa 4 minggu..pastu nak try macam2..mana tau leaking..bla..bla...nanti kang tengah2 buat eksperimen gas abis kang..nak kena tunggu 4 minggu lagi..sapa yang salah?sapa yang malu?mereka dan keluarga mereka..

Bos : Owh..betul2...kena beli standby...ha...duit dalam akaun hang ada tinggal brapa lagi?

Kita : (dengan muka penuh innosen dan dua posen..kita pun kata..)..Ada tinggal kurang 50 pound je bos..dah ujung2 ni kan..

Kita: Owh bagus2 sebab guna..Ha...sediakan borang nak beli gas tu..bak mai sini ..

Gua : Dah sediakan pun ni ha...bos tinggal sign je..

Bos : You cheeky devil!!! ..(amik aku sejibik!!tapi dalam hati kita kata..'la..baru tau ke betapa cheeky devilnya kita..har har har)..aeniwei..dengan senyuman cheeky dia pun sign..;op

Alhamdulillah...:)

Her who I love best..

She who I love best once said : 'Memberi tapi tak pernah menerima..selalu jadi persinggahan...orang amik kesempatan....dah la sakit..semua sakit..sakit lagi'..Pity for your daughter eh mom?..:(..don't ..don't ever...Allah tu kan maha Adil..Happy skrg ni..sehappy happynya!Tak perlu kusut pasal orang lain..diri sendiri pun tak terlerai kekusutan..:)Can I not to think about that matter..now??Peduli apa orang kata...Percayalah..okay ni..okay macam ni..

Love him...Love his voice, love him speaks...love him reads..

Dickens shows that "true gentleman is someone who carries himself calmly, elegantly and speaks with a voice such as Eugenes".. and I love Paul McGann..Can't get enough of him...I listen to his audiobook to sleep..

Give yourself justice.. This is what I think

They say..when you get married.. You have your own life... It's true.. But I think when your parents are alright, in their best condition..then your focus  And at The end of The day.. You, only you know what's going on..in your family..Just now my mom mentioned for The milliOn times.. Pray for your soulmate...

This is what I think and what I believe.. Allah swt knows that I'm not prepared for that yet.. knows what has been in my mind every single day... What bothering me so much.. So I haven't met anyone best..because that might kept me away from all things that I have been hold on to all my life ..especially now.. So I say.. At this moment.. I realized that I have come to The stage and to such extent I don't care about that anymore.. This is true.. Don't be prejudiced.. I know what I'm experiencing best.. Because at The end of The day.. ALLAH knows best.. Don't ask me about that anymore..There's no room for that.. at This moment..

End

Tiba2 rasa...

Sepi...

Sedihnya...:(

Cerita hidup yang lepas..cerita hidup akan datang...

Lama tak menulis..

Masih belum sampai cita2 nak tulis macam Adibah Amin..!!

Really?

Hard hearted..and selfish..Really??Is that really who I am??

Maybe I didn't realize ..that maybe that's really who I am..

You're the first to know..

What do you feel if somebody started telling something, with this, to break the special, great, wonderful news..If it among your girlfriends, then fine..but what if with someone you close to, I'm talking about the opposite gender here...and yet he said this to you, what does this means?To me, it means nothing..because it happens so many times already..i don't believe I shall feel special..it's funny this morning while I was cleaning the dishes...out of a sudden...my mind went back to those..I remember everything..precisely...tracked back the memory lane..so what had happened because I let them happened..but I don't believe it anymore..Feel neutral, will you please??So guys, don't ever try it with me..all those words!!Don't tear, hurt any further..this wounded swollen soul!

Prelude..ke?

"The truth is..I'm no easy..I'm just one vulnerable, sensitive and yes, one stubborn person..and still they don't know the details..it's hard to tell..they can never imagine..but I know what I know..it's not supposed to happen..I won't allow it to happen...again..never..(can it be..with this weakness..my weakness??)...I gave them so much chance..I was like an umbrella..burnt myself...not that burnt to  ashes...but burnt..like a shield...hot and burnt..then when you're not needed...you stay, ready at your service, any time..then you'll  get warm n cool...n then there comes the rain..here comes the shield..cool and cold..but felt like being smashed..in that stormy rains..sometimes you fought hard..ended up broken, useless...you are not needed..you  were replaced..you were left, there..totally..no way to be fixed again..totally wrenched ...wrench the soul...why..why..what with this cycle...not a chance now....I learnt mine..(you keep telling this uncountable times now..but still...) that's why..now I understand..why to some ..they just hate...and at some point..they never healed..now..I know..now...I understand..

This is to ease my mind..don't ask..I'll keep it to myself..I don't even trust myself anymore..The realization hurts..

Make urself convenient...so that others will be a convenience to you...but yes...with all that, still always  some took things for granted...like they never learnt their lesson!!This is the expression of years of experience...They said..I must change...must I change my way...to make things easy..due to some unfortunate events..(according to them)..but what if it's not really who and what I am???The worst  crime to do is not to being yourself..you'll be trapped..guilt..Nobody wants to be somebody else!!To like somebody..like them for who they are..to love somebody..love them unconditionally..simple!And one thing...you always learn valuable lessons from everything that happened..yes..at the very moment the so called 'unfortunate event' happened..u'll ask, why?why?But then..of all the hidden secrets you learnt..so they were never 'unfortunate event'...they were indeed..valuable..."

Okay tak kalau ni jadi prelude novel???or columnist pengalaman hidup dari kaca mata pengamatan sekeliling macam Adibah Amin tu??Love her!Love her writing!I've written my thoughts a lot..and maybe deleted somes..if some of u might noticed..(those were so hurtful I can't even look at the headings!!..Those things that you can forgive..but u can never forget!!) so  I shall begin again....and I hope it won't be a cliche..

Entah tetiba mood menulis ni datang...baru lepas tengok cite hindi Aaina...(Jackie Shroff sangat charming!!) - Orang len sibuk dok tengok cite korea, jepun la, omputih  la....Hindi..???Nak balik ghaye...tiket belum beli lagi..setiap minggu dok tengok ...kenapa tiket mahal sangat ni..:-(..

Okay dah melalut..